“I misused my position of power to get my needs met…How is it that if we’re called by God to this ministry we could possibly do such a destructive thing?”Producer/Editor: Nigel Coutinho, Stephanie Lepp, Whit MissildineContent/Trigger Warnings: child sexual abuse, explicit languageToday's episode featured Gil Gustafson. This episode was originally produced by Stephanie Lepp at Reckonings, and adapted for This Is Actually Happening. You can find Reckonings wherever you listen, and at: www.reckonings.showthisisactuallyhappening.comInstagram: @actuallyhappeningIntro Music: "Illabye" - TipperAmbient Themes by Nigel CoutinhoOutro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/ Episode Sponsors:Buffy, PROMO CODE: HAPPENINGSimpliSafe, PROMO CODE: HAPPENING Great Courses Plus, PROMO CODE: HAPPENING You can now find new and archival episodes of This Is Actually Happening completely ad-free, on Stitcher Premium. For a free month of Stitcher Premium, go to stitcherpremium.com/wondery and use promo code WONDERY. This Is Actually Happening online store now officially open. Follow this link https://www.teepublic.com/stores/this-is-actually-happening-store?ref_id=9467 to access branded t-shirts, posters, stickers and more from the shop.