This Is Actually Happening

This Is Actually Happening

By Whit Missildine/Wondery

The uncanny, extraordinary, true stories of events that have dramatically altered the lives of ordinary people; a son is shot by his own father, a woman's sister develops multiple personalities, a man wakes up in the morgue. These are riveting, moving and often haunting stories that will stick with you long after you listen. 

Episodes

156: What if you swallowed 48 bags of cocaine?

“I had to go through having taken everything away from me to come to the conclusion that … you’ll come back a person that’s wiser and a more full, satisfied human.” Producer: Whit Missildinethisisactuallyhappening.comInstagram: @actuallyhappeningContent/Trigger Warnings: drugs, near death, explicit languageSupport The Show: You can support the show by supporting our sponsors, or through direct contributions on Patreon at https://www.patreon.com/happeningIntro Music: "Illabye" - TipperMusic Bed:  Ambient Themes by Nigel CoutinhoOutro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/This Is Actually Happening Store: This Is Actually Happening online store now officially open. Follow this link https://www.teepublic.com/stores/this-is-actually-happening-store?ref_id=9467 to access branded t-shirts, posters, stickers and more from the shop. 
02/06/2045m 33s

155: What if you had to pull the plug?

“When somebody hurts you and then they’re like, ‘now you have to take care of him, you’re responsible for him…’ I didn’t know how to feel.” Producer: Whit Missildinethisisactuallyhappening.comInstagram: @actuallyhappeningContent/Trigger Warnings: death, mental illness, explicit languageSupport The Show: You can support the show by supporting our sponsors, or through direct contributions on Patreon at https://www.patreon.com/happeningEpisode Sponsors: Simplisafe https://simplisafe.com/Intro Music: "Illabye" - TipperMusic Bed:  “Cylinder Four/Cylinder Five” – Chris ZabriskieOutro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/This Is Actually Happening Store: This Is Actually Happening online store now officially open. Follow this link https://www.teepublic.com/stores/this-is-actually-happening-store?ref_id=9467 to access branded t-shirts, posters, stickers and more from the shop. 
19/05/2048m 25s

154: What if your mom was murdered by a serial killer?

“I had total grief and sadness and fear and also just disbelief that it happened. But it’s different when you lose somebody who hurt you.”Producers: Whit MissildineContent/Trigger Warnings: mental illness, murder, explicit languageToday’s episode featured Nova Reeves. To find out more about Nova, you can Google her article on the death penalty in the Tacoma Tribune. You can hear her reading poetry on YouTube by searching for Quiet Lightning. You can also get a copy of her zine by emailing her directly at novareeves@gmail.comthisisactuallyhappening.comInstagram: @actuallyhappeningIntro Music: "Illabye" - TipperMusic Bed: “Union Flow” - SpunticOutro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/You can support the show by supporting our sponsors, or through direct contributions on Patreon at https://www.patreon.com/happeningThis Is Actually Happening online store now officially open. Follow this link https://www.teepublic.com/stores/this-is-actually-happening-store?ref_id=9467 to access branded t-shirts, posters, stickers and more from the shop. 
05/05/2046m 15s

BONUS Episode - Tyson Was Abducted - from What Was That Like podcast

Today, I'm introducing the podcast What Was That Like, by Scott Johnson. Featuring real people in unreal situations, What Was That Like covers similar, jaw-dropping stories to This Is Actually Happening, but with its own uniquely fascinating format and style. Today's show will feature a full episode from What Was That Like titled, "Tyson was abducted," about a man who, walking through a parking lot one night, was jumped by two strangers and thrown into a car with no idea where he was being taken. You can find the rest of What Was That Like, by Scott Johnson, on all podcast platforms, or check out the website, at whatwasthatlike.com
28/04/201h 13m

153: What if you wanted to disappear?

“I had this secret inside me that I felt was my one and only friend and companion that took me away from all the pain and anxiety that I had moving through my life.” Producers: Whit MissildineContent/Trigger Warnings: eating disorder, death, domestic abuse, explicit languagethisisactuallyhappening.comInstagram: @actuallyhappeningIntro Music: "Illabye" - TipperMusic Bed: “Re-Entry” – Lee RosevereOutro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/ Episode Sponsors:Simplisafe: simplisafe.comGabi Insurance: gabi.com This Is Actually Happening online store now officially open. Follow this link https://www.teepublic.com/stores/this-is-actually-happening-store?ref_id=9467 to access branded t-shirts, posters, stickers and more from the shop. 
21/04/2050m 57s

152: What if you were a human shield?

“This fake face I was putting on for everybody was my only sense of normality when my whole life is already changed. I didn’t want to admit that stuff was wrong, and I did it in such a convincing way that the majority of people believed me.”Producers: Whit MissildineContent/Trigger Warnings: war, severe injury, gun violence, PTSD, explicit languageToday's episode featured Will Hoover. To find out more about Will, he’s on Twitter and Instagram @WillHooverTV, or you can check his own recently launched podcast about film and technology called Uncovered Cinema.thisisactuallyhappening.comInstagram: @actuallyhappeningIntro Music: "Illabye" - TipperMusic Bed: Ambient themes by Nigel CoutinhoOutro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/ Episode Sponsors:Great Courses Plus: thegreatcoursesplus.comNative: nativedeodorant.com This Is Actually Happening online store now officially open. Follow this link https://www.teepublic.com/stores/this-is-actually-happening-store?ref_id=9467 to access branded t-shirts, posters, stickers and more from the shop. 
07/04/2055m 55s

151: What if he made you think you were crazy?

“I was sure that this was his mental illness and not something wrong with me until I started hearing it in my head. And that was when I started to think, 'maybe I’m actually going crazy'.”Producers: Sara Marinelli, Whit MissildineContent/Trigger Warnings: emotional abuse, sexual abuse, domestic violence, drug use, explicit languagethisisactuallyhappening.comInstagram: @actuallyhappeningIntro Music: "Illabye" - TipperMusic Bed: “Cylinder Four/Cylinder Five” – Chris ZabriskieOutro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/ Episode Sponsors:Great Courses Plus, thegreatcoursesplus.com PROMO CODE: HAPPENINGUpstart, upstart.com/HAPPENINGSimplisafe: simplisafe.com/HAPPENINGGabi Insurance: gabi.com/HAPPENINGYou can now find new and archival episodes of This Is Actually Happening completely ad-free, on Stitcher Premium. For a free month of Stitcher Premium, go to stitcherpremium.com/wondery and use promo code WONDERY. This Is Actually Happening online store now officially open. Follow this link https://www.teepublic.com/stores/this-is-actually-happening-store?ref_id=9467 to access branded t-shirts, posters, stickers and more from the shop. 
24/03/2052m 37s

150: What if you were trapped in a cycle of abuse?

“My earliest memories as a child were fear and anxiety…I was never able to control the situation and that unknown just haunted me.”Today’s episode featured Arielle Hermanson. You can find her on Twitter and Instagram @arijbligeProducer/Editor: Whit MissildineContent/Trigger Warnings: abuse, domestic violence, explicit languagethisisactuallyhappening.comInstagram: @actuallyhappeningIntro Music: "Illabye" - TipperMusic Bed: “Union Flow” - SpunticOutro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/ Episode Sponsors:Great Courses Plus, thegreatcoursesplus.com PROMO CODE: HAPPENINGUpstart, upstart.com/HAPPENINGYou can now find new and archival episodes of This Is Actually Happening completely ad-free, on Stitcher Premium. For a free month of Stitcher Premium, go to stitcherpremium.com/wondery and use promo code WONDERY. This Is Actually Happening online store now officially open. Follow this link https://www.teepublic.com/stores/this-is-actually-happening-store?ref_id=9467 to access branded t-shirts, posters, stickers and more from the shop. 
10/03/2054m 37s

149: What if you committed child sexual abuse?

 “I misused my position of power to get my needs met…How is it that if we’re called by God to this ministry we could possibly do such a destructive thing?”Producer/Editor: Nigel Coutinho, Stephanie Lepp, Whit MissildineContent/Trigger Warnings: child sexual abuse, explicit languageToday's episode featured Gil Gustafson. This episode was originally produced by Stephanie Lepp at Reckonings, and adapted for This Is Actually Happening. You can find Reckonings wherever you listen, and at: www.reckonings.showthisisactuallyhappening.comInstagram: @actuallyhappeningIntro Music: "Illabye" - TipperAmbient Themes by Nigel CoutinhoOutro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/ Episode Sponsors:Buffy, PROMO CODE: HAPPENINGSimpliSafe, PROMO CODE: HAPPENING Great Courses Plus, PROMO CODE: HAPPENING You can now find new and archival episodes of This Is Actually Happening completely ad-free, on Stitcher Premium. For a free month of Stitcher Premium, go to stitcherpremium.com/wondery and use promo code WONDERY. This Is Actually Happening online store now officially open. Follow this link https://www.teepublic.com/stores/this-is-actually-happening-store?ref_id=9467 to access branded t-shirts, posters, stickers and more from the shop. 
25/02/201h 9m

148: What if you killed someone?

“We have so much less control than we think we do….Death is really close at hand and we do not do ourselves often any favors by forgetting that.”Producer/Editor: Whit MissildineContent/Trigger Warnings: death, car crash, explicit languagethisisactuallyhappening.comInstagram: @actuallyhappeningEpisode Sponsors: Buffy: buffy.co PROMO CODE: HAPPENINGIntro Music: "Illabye" - TipperMusic Bed:  “Cylinder Four/Cylinder Five” – Chris ZabriskieOutro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/ You can now find new and archival episodes of This Is Actually Happening completely ad-free, on Stitcher Premium. For a free month of Stitcher Premium, go to stitcherpremium.com/wondery and use promo code WONDERY. This Is Actually Happening online store now officially open. Follow this link https://www.teepublic.com/stores/this-is-actually-happening-store?ref_id=9467 to access branded t-shirts, posters, stickers and more from the shop. 
11/02/201h 1m

147: What if your best friend was dying?

“It’s much better to try to move forward with your life and accept that things are nebulous, and there are no clear answers.”Editors: Sara Marinelli, Whit MissildineProducer: Whit MissildineContent/Trigger Warnings: explicit languagethisisactuallyhappening.comInstagram: @actuallyhappeningEpisode Sponsors: Simplisafe: simplisafe.com/HAPPENINGGreat Courses Plus: thegreatcoursesplus.com PROMO CODE: HAPPENINGIntro Music: "Illabye" - TipperMusic Bed:  “Re-entry” – Lee RosevereOutro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/ You can now find new and archival episodes of This Is Actually Happening completely ad-free, on Stitcher Premium. For a free month of Stitcher Premium, go to stitcherpremium.com/wondery and use promo code WONDERY. The This Is Actually Happening online store now officially open. Follow this link https://www.teepublic.com/stores/this-is-actually-happening-store?ref_id=9467 to purchase branded t-shirts, posters, stickers and more from the shop. 
28/01/2050m 42s

146: What if you thought your mother was a robot?

“I completely lost touch with reality. You can’t rely on those around you, and you can’t rely on what’s within you. That’s the most terrifying thing in the world.”Producer/Editor: Whit MissildineContent/Trigger Warnings: drug use, mental breakdown, explicit languagethisisactuallyhappening.comInstagram: @actuallyhappeningEpisode Sponsors: Upstart: upstart.com/HAPPENINGGreat Courses Plus: thegreatcoursesplus.com PROMO CODE: HAPPENINGIntro Music: "Illabye" - TipperMusic Bed:  Ambient Themes by Nigel CoutinhoOutro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/ You can now find new and archival episodes of This Is Actually Happening completely ad-free, on Stitcher Premium. For a free month of Stitcher Premium, go to stitcherpremium.com/wondery and use promo code WONDERY. This Is Actually Happening online store now officially open. Follow this link https://www.teepublic.com/stores/this-is-actually-happening-store?ref_id=9467 to access branded t-shirts, posters, stickers and more from the shop. 
14/01/2048m 52s

Introducing : Accused Season 3

Trailer for Season 3 of the acclaimed Wondery podcast, AccusedIn 1984, a father of three disappeared while working at a mysterious Cincinnati plant. It turned out he’d met a gruesome fate. Two months later, the Fernald Feed Materials Production Center was revealed to have been processing uranium – and polluting the region. The dead man’s children believe their father was murdered because he intended to expose how the plant had been releasing millions of pounds of uranium dust into the atmosphere. We’re hoping to figure out: Did 39-year-old David Bocks kill himself, as Fernald officials alleged, or was he more likely killed?Subscribe now: http://wondery.fm/Accused_AH
09/01/2010m 59s

Best of TIAH #1 – Rebroadcast - #120 What if you had Dissociative Identity Disorder?

“I don’t really remember not having different parts…I just thought that everybody had different quote unquote people inside them.”Producer: Whit Missildinethisisactuallyhappening.comInstagram: @actuallyhappeningTrigger/Content Warnings: parental abuse, torture, sexual abuse, sex trafficking, murder, severe mental illnessIntro Music: "Illabye" - TipperMusic Bed: “Water” – Johannes WelschOutro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
07/01/201h 6m

Best of TIAH #2 – Rebroadcast – #94: What if the worst thing that could ever happen to you already had?

"It’s surreal. It’s like a movie. It’s like it’s not even happening to you it’s happening to someone else."Producer: Whit Missildinethisisactuallyhappening.comInstagram: @actuallyhappeningIntro Music: "Illabye" - TipperMusic Bed: Original Score & Sound Design: Ryan Black - ryanblack.ioOutro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
31/12/1941m 59s

Best of TIAH #3 – Rebroadcast – #112: What if a murderer appeared at your bedroom door?

"What happened to me is one of those things where people say, like, 'that could never happen to you.' So now once that happened, it's like well anything can happen to me at any time." Producer: Whit Missildine thisisactuallyhappening.comInstagram: @actuallyhappeningEpisode Sponsor: Policygenius Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Music Bed: "Union Flow" - Spuntic. Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
24/12/1957m 11s

145: What if your best friend met a tragic fate?

“I’m the kind of person where I like to know answers. I don’t like secrets I don’t like surprises…I really want to know what brought him to that. I really want to know why.”Producer: Whit MissildineEditors: Nigel Coutinho, Whit MissildineContent/Trigger Warnings: mental illness, explicit languageYou can now find new and archival episodes of This Is Actually Happening completely ad-free, on Stitcher Premium. For a free month of Stitcher Premium, go to stitcherpremium.com/wondery and use promo code WONDERY.thisisactuallyhappening.comInstagram: @actuallyhappeningEpisode Sponsors: Audible: audible.com/HAPPENING for 53% off your first 3 monthsUpstart: upstart.com/HAPPENINGPolicygenius: policygenius.comIntro Music: "Illabye" - TipperMusic Bed:  “Cylinder Four/Cylinder Five” – Chris ZabriskieOutro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/ This Is Actually Happening online store now officially open. Follow this link https://www.teepublic.com/stores/this-is-actually-happening-store?ref_id=9467 to access branded t-shirts, posters, stickers and more from the shop. 
17/12/1941m 22s

144: What if you suffered from postpartum depression?

“All those thoughts were going through my head like you’re worthless, you’re a loser, you’re a failure, you can’t be happy, you can’t feel love…just this feeling of profound failure.”Producer: Whit MissildineEditors: Sara Marinelli, Whit MissildineContent/Trigger Warnings: mental illness, explicit languageYou can now find new and archival episodes of This Is Actually Happening completely ad-free, on Stitcher Premium. For a free month of Stitcher Premium, go to stitcherpremium.com/wondery and use promo code WONDERY.thisisactuallyhappening.comInstagram: @actuallyhappeningIntro Music: "Illabye" - TipperMusic Bed:  Ambient Themes by Nigel CoutinhoOutro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/ This Is Actually Happening online store now officially open. Follow this link https://www.teepublic.com/stores/this-is-actually-happening-store?ref_id=9467 to access branded t-shirts, posters, stickers and more from the shop. 
03/12/1953m 17s

143: What if you were seduced into a whole new world?

“Am I at fault? Am I not a victim? Should I not be able to say that because I let it happen? I don’t know if in the human heart there will ever be black and white answers to something like that.”Producer: Whit MissildineEditor: Whit MissildineContent/Trigger Warnings: sexual violence, abuse, sexual trauma, explicit languageYou can now find new and archival episodes of This Is Actually Happening completely ad-free, on Stitcher Premium. For a free month of Stitcher Premium, go to stitcherpremium.com/wondery and use promo code WONDERY.thisisactuallyhappening.comInstagram: @actuallyhappeningIntro Music: "Illabye" - TipperMusic Bed:  “Re-entry” – Lee RosevereOutro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/ This Is Actually Happening online store now officially open. Follow this link https://www.teepublic.com/stores/this-is-actually-happening-store?ref_id=9467 to access branded t-shirts, posters, stickers and more from the shop. 
19/11/191h 11m

142: What if it happened in broad daylight?

“I didn’t really realize that it was a thing that was happening to me. I don’t really know how to describe that feeling, but it was just so hard to understand.”Producer: Whit MissildineEditor: Nigel Coutinho, Whit MissildineContent/Trigger Warnings: violent assault, explicit languageYou can now find new and archival episodes of This Is Actually Happening completely ad-free, on Stitcher Premium. For a free month of Stitcher Premium, go to stitcherpremium.com/wondery and use promo code WONDERY.thisisactuallyhappening.comInstagram: @actuallyhappeningIntro Music: "Illabye" - TipperMusic Bed:  “Cylinder Four/Cylinder Five” – Chris ZabriskieOutro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/ This Is Actually Happening online store now officially open. Follow this link https://www.teepublic.com/stores/this-is-actually-happening-store?ref_id=9467 to access branded t-shirts, posters, stickers and more from the shop. 
05/11/1948m 26s

141: What if you witnessed a horrific act?

“I just felt something inside of me that was so sickening. It’s just like this point of realization, almost like your biggest fear in that moment had come true.”Producer: Whit MissildineEditor: Whit MissildineContent/Trigger Warnings: suicide, explicit languageYou can now find new and archival episodes of This Is Actually Happening completely ad-free, on Stitcher Premium. For a free month of Stitcher Premium, go to stitcherpremium.com/wondery and use promo code WONDERY.thisisactuallyhappening.comInstagram: @actuallyhappeningIntro Music: "Illabye" - TipperMusic Bed:  Ambient themes by Nigel CoutinhoOutro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/ This Is Actually Happening online store now officially open. Follow this link https://www.teepublic.com/stores/this-is-actually-happening-store?ref_id=9467 to access branded t-shirts, posters, stickers and more from the shop. 
22/10/1933m 16s

140: What if you were entangled in a web of shame?

“It’s just confusing thinking about even today what I’m supposed to feel about the whole thing…humans aren’t really built to fully understand that kind of relationship.”Producer: Whit MissildineEditor: Whit MissildineContent/Trigger Warnings: bullying, explicit languageYou can now find new and archival episodes of This Is Actually Happening completely ad-free, on Stitcher Premium. For a free month of Stitcher Premium, go to stitcherpremium.com/wondery and use promo code WONDERY.thisisactuallyhappening.comInstagram: @actuallyhappeningIntro Music: "Illabye" - TipperMusic Bed:  “Wake Up” - SpunticOutro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/ This Is Actually Happening online store now officially open. Follow this link https://www.teepublic.com/stores/this-is-actually-happening-store?ref_id=9467 to access branded t-shirts, posters, stickers and more from the shop. 
08/10/1943m 3s

139: What if your father disappeared?

“The worst thing that anxiety does is make you think that you have control to change something, like if I can constantly be in control of everything then nothing bad will happen.”Producer: Whit MissildineEditor: Nigel Coutinho, Whit MissildineContent/Trigger Warnings: missing person, traumatic injury of a child, explicit languageYou can now find new and archival episodes of This Is Actually Happening completely ad-free, on Stitcher Premium. For a free month of Stitcher Premium, go to stitcherpremium.com/wondery and use promo code WONDERY.thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Episode Sponsors: The Secret Room podcastIntro Music: "Illabye" - TipperMusic Bed:  Ambient Themes by Nigel CoutinhoOutro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/ This Is Actually Happening online store now officially open. Follow this link https://www.teepublic.com/stores/this-is-actually-happening-store?ref_id=9467 to access branded t-shirts, posters, stickers and more from the shop. 
24/09/1950m 59s

138: What if at three months pregnant your world was turned upside down?

“It’s like this weird tunnel of reality collapsing and you want to hold on to where you just were at where none of this happened, but now you have this thing that you have to absorb somehow.”Today's episode features Shideh Etaat. If you'd like to donate to the GoFundMe page for her husband's recovery, follow the link below. http://bit.ly/shidehgofundmeProducer: Whit MissildineEditor: Nigel Coutinho, Whit MissildineContent/Trigger Warnings: traumatic injury, explicit languageANNOUNCEMENTSThis Is Actually Happening online store now officially open. Follow this link https://www.teepublic.com/stores/this-is-actually-happening-store?ref_id=9467 to access branded t-shirts, posters, stickers and more from the shop. You can now find new and archival episodes of This Is Actually Happening completely ad-free, on Stitcher Premium. For a free month of Stitcher Premium, go to stitcherpremium.com/wondery and use promo code WONDERY.thisisactuallyhappening.comInstagram: @actuallyhappening Episode Sponsors: Natural Disasters podcast, from ParcastIntro Music: "Illabye" - TipperMusic Bed:  Ambient Themes by Nigel CoutinhoOutro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
10/09/1944m 28s

137: What if you were the one to break the silence?

“I don’t know what I was thinking but I just kept feeling like the waves of shame because of the shame I made them feel.”Producer: Whit MissildineEditor: Whit MissildineToday’s episode of This is Actually Happening featured Kiese Laymon. Kiese is a professor of English and the author of the book, Heavy. You can see more of his work at kieselaymon.comANNOUNCEMENTSThis Is Actually Happening online store now officially open. Follow this link www.actuallyhappeningstore.com to access branded t-shirts, posters, stickers and more from the shop. You can now find new and archival episodes of This Is Actually Happening completely ad-free, on Stitcher Premium. For a free month of Stitcher Premium, go to stitcherpremium.com/wondery and use promo code WONDERY.Content/Trigger Warnings: physical violence, assault, emotional abusethisisactuallyhappening.comInstagram: @actuallyhappeningIntro Music: "Illabye" - TipperMusic Bed: “Re-entry” – Lee Rosevere Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
27/08/1944m 18s

136: What if you had to fight for your life?

“I did have the feeling that someone was gonna come back and do something horrible again after that.”Producer: Whit MissildineEditors: Nigel Coutinho, Whit MissildineANNOUNCEMENTSThis Is Actually Happening online store now officially open. Follow this link www.actuallyhappeningstore.com to access branded t-shirts, posters, stickers and more from the shop. You can now find new and archival episodes of This Is Actually Happening completely ad-free, on Stitcher Premium. For a free month of Stitcher Premium, go to stitcherpremium.com/wondery and use promo code WONDERY.Content/Trigger Warnings: physical violence, assault, emotional abuse,thisisactuallyhappening.comInstagram: @actuallyhappening Episode Sponsors: FabFitFun www.fabfitfun.com Promo code: HAPPENINGIntro Music: "Illabye" - TipperAmbient themes by Nigel Coutinho Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
20/08/1941m 23s

135: What if a minor procedure left you permanently altered?

“My personhood had been shattered into a thousand pieces that I and my family were left to pick up one at a time.”Today's episode features Olivia Wilder. You can find out more about Olivia in Instagram @oliviaamputeefitnessProducer: Whit MissildineEditor: Whit MissildineANNOUNCEMENTSThis Is Actually Happening online store now officially open. Follow this link https://www.teepublic.com/stores/this-is-actually-happening-store?ref_id=9467 to access branded t-shirts, posters, stickers and more from the shop.You can now find new and archival episodes of This Is Actually Happening completely ad-free, on Stitcher Premium. For a free month of Stitcher Premium, go to stitcherpremium.com/wondery and use promo code WONDERY.Content/Trigger Warnings: medical trauma, explicit languagethisisactuallyhappening.comInstagram: @actuallyhappeningEpisode Sponsors:Medical Mysteries podcast, from ParcastIntro Music: "Illabye" - TipperAmbient themes by Nigel CoutinhoOutro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
13/08/1944m 59s

Season 9 Announcements

Announcements for Season 9 of This Is Actually Happening. Includes updates on the release schedule, the new This is Actually Happening store, and more. If you'd like to submit a design for a This Is Actually Happening t-shirt or poster, send your artwork to actuallyhappeningpodcast@gmail.com
06/08/192m 44s

134: What if your singular dream fell to pieces?

“How could I allow myself to mourn what I had lost? Because if I mourned it, then it was like a death, and I couldn’t accept that the me that I knew had died.”Producer: Whit MissildineEditor: Whit MissildineToday’s episode featured Stefan Weiner. As a musician, he goes by Stefan Alexander and you can hear more about his music on his website at www.stefanalxndr.com, on Instagram @stefanalxndr, or look for Stefan Alexander on any music platform.You can now find new and archival episodes of This Is Actually Happening completely ad-free, on Stitcher Premium. For a free month of Stitcher Premium, go to stitcherpremium.com/wondery and use promo code WONDERY.thisisactuallyhappening.comInstagram: @actuallyhappeningEpisode Sponsors: Ancestry: ancestry.com/happeningDaily Harvest: daily-harvest.com Promo code: HAPPENINGFabFitFun: fabfitfun.com Promo code: HAPPENINGIntro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Music Bed: “Cylinder Four” “Cylinder Five” – Chris Zabriskie Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
11/06/1944m 0s

133: What if your life went up in flames?

“All that traumatized people are really looking for is not a fix-it but more like a validation or acknowledgement that it matters.”Producer: Whit MissildineEditor: Nigel CoutinhoYou can now find new and archival episodes of This Is Actually Happening completely ad-free, on Stitcher Premium. For a free month of Stitcher Premium, go to stitcherpremium.com/wondery and use promo code WONDERY.thisisactuallyhappening.comInstagram: @actuallyhappeningEpisode Sponsors: Ancestry. www.ancestry.com/happeningFabFitFun: https://fabfitfun.com/Intro Music: "Illabye" - TipperMusic Bed: “Wake Up” - Spuntic Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
28/05/1942m 12s

132: What if you were kept from the one you loved most?

“It’s interesting always having this void, knowing that you have something so wonderful that could love you so much and you could love so much that exists out there.”Producer: Whit MissildineEditor: Nigel CoutinhoYou can now find new and archival episodes of This Is Actually Happening completely ad-free, on Stitcher Premium. For a free month of Stitcher Premium, go to stitcherpremium.com/wondery and use promo code WONDERY.thisisactuallyhappening.comInstagram: @actuallyhappeningEpisode Sponsors: Ancestry. www.ancestry.com/happeningDaily Harvest. www.daily-harvest.com promo code: HAPPENINGIntro Music: "Illabye" - TipperAmbient themes by Nigel Coutinho Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
14/05/1932m 21s

131: What if a psychotic break split your life wide open?

“I have a fear every single day am I going crazy and I don’t even know it? I didn’t know the things that I was doing and the things that I was saying were so extreme.”Producer: Whit MissildineEditor: Nigel CoutinhoYou can now find new and archival episodes of This Is Actually Happening completely ad-free, on Stitcher Premium. For a free month of Stitcher Premium, go to stitcherpremium.com/wondery and use promo code WONDERY.thisisactuallyhappening.comInstagram: @actuallyhappeningEpisode Sponsors: Ancestry, RobinhoodIntro Music: "Illabye" - TipperMusic Bed: “Union Flow” - SpunticOutro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
30/04/1934m 18s

130: What if you had thoughts of harming those you love most?

After coming to terms with her identity, a woman develops intrusive thoughts that consume her most important relationships. “People say you should always trust your gut feelings. But I couldn’t trust my gut feeling and I still can’t to this day, because to me a gut feeling is in turn thinking about hurting somebody else.”Producer: Whit MissildineEditor: Nigel CoutinhoYou can now find new and archival episodes of This Is Actually Happening completely ad-free, on Stitcher Premium. For a free month of Stitcher Premium, go to stitcherpremium.com/wondery and use promo code WONDERY.thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappeningEpisode Sponsors: Betterhelp, Robinhood, Daily HarvestIntro Music: "Illabye" - TipperAmbient Themes by Nigel CoutinhoOutro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
16/04/1941m 32s

129: What if your mother left to follow a cult?

From a divided home with parents of two opposing world views, a girl whose mother becomes enamored with a trance channeler must now make sense of her life in the void of abandonment. “You’ve got to figure out how to go through the world in a way that feels right to you and that you do the least damage, and that you do the most good. But that path is not always clear.”Producer: Whit MissildineEditor: Nigel Coutinhothisisactuallyhappening.comInstagram: @actuallyhappeningEpisode Sponsors: Betterhelp, ThirdLove, SurvivalIntro Music: "Illabye" - TipperMusic Bed: "Cylinder Four" "Cylinder Five" - Chris ZabriskieOutro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
02/04/1953m 12s

128: What if your son stabbed your daughter?

Escaping a dysfunctional family background and finally raising a wonderful family of her own, a woman’s son commits a shocking crime that throws everything into chaos. “Human behavior in general is just unpredictable. You can think you know that a person wouldn’t do this or would do this or wouldn’t be capable of it. And then they do it.”Producer: Whit MissildineEditor: Nigel Coutinhothisisactuallyhappening.comInstagram: @actuallyhappeningEpisode Sponsors: ThirdLove, Uber, CBS/The Good Fight, RobinhoodIntro Music: "Illabye" - TipperAmbient Themes by Nigel CoutinhoOutro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
19/03/1948m 33s

127: What if your drive for perfection became your fatal flaw?

Heading to college as a star athlete from a protective family, a man’s perfectionism and drive for self-control leads to a downward spiral. “After like looking in the mirror saying like wow I fucking like hate myself right now…as I got more upset and as time progressed I would go deeper deeper deeper.”Producer: Whit MissildineEditor: Nigel Coutinhothisisactuallyhappening.comInstagram: @actuallyhappeningEpisode Sponsors:  ThirdLove, Uber, CBS/The Good FightIntro Music: "Illabye" - TipperAmbient Themes by Nigel CoutinhoOutro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
05/03/1935m 2s

126: What if your family was consumed by an unthinkable act?

Growing up Jehovah’s Witness and then setting out to form an identity of her own, a woman reconciles the silences of her loving and devoted family with an unthinkable act that throws everything into question. “If there was a note…or just anything that would give us a single clue about it…but ultimately I don’t know like I’m never going to know why.”Producer: Whit Missildinethisisactuallyhappening.comInstagram: @actuallyhappeningEpisode Sponsors: Poshmark, Uber, RobinhoodIntro Music: "Illabye" - TipperMusic Bed: “Wake Up” - SpunticOutro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
19/02/1954m 15s

125: What if you left everything you had ever known?

“It came along with this complete obliteration of everything I had ever believed and been taught and every moral that I was that I had within me.”Producer: Whit Missildinethisisactuallyhappening.comInstagram: @actuallyhappeningEpisode Sponsors: Third Love, UberIntro Music: "Illabye" - TipperMusic Bed: “Union Flow” - SpunticOutro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negrowww.eldiablobass.com/
05/02/1945m 48s

124: What if you transitioned into an alternate reality?

“It’s almost as if like I could feel my whole self just changing at this point and just changing in the way that I trust people…and questioning myself and everything.”Producer: Whit Missildinethisisactuallyhappening.comInstagram: @actuallyhappeningEpisode Sponsors: Poshmark, RobinhoodIntro Music: "Illabye" - TipperMusic Bed: “Re-Entry” – Lee RosevereOutro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
22/01/1950m 56s

123: What if you refused to be annihilated?

“I believe that people like me people that have experienced trauma, I think we’re the ones that need to save the world…we’re the ones that actually know everything about innocence.”Producer: Whit Missildinethisisactuallyhappening.comInstagram: @actuallyhappeningEpisode Sponsors: ThirdLove, Care/Of and PoshmarkIntro Music: "Illabye" - TipperMusic Bed: “Cylinder Four” “Cylinder Five” – Chris ZabriskieOutro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
08/01/191h 2m

122: What if you found a real Hollywood romance?

“If I have to go on based what I found out, I feel like maybe my whole entire relationship was just a fantasy.”Producer: Whit Missildinethisisactuallyhappening.comInstagram: @actuallyhappeningToday’s episode features Brittani Louise Taylor whose memoir “A Sucky Love Story” contains deeper details about her experience. You can find her book at: https://www.amazon.com/gp/product/1642930008 You can also check out her YouTube channel at: https://www.youtube.com/BrittaniLouiseTaylorEpisode Sponsors: Quip www.getquip.com/happeningIntro Music: "Illabye" - TipperMusic Bed: “Wake Up” – SpunticOutro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
11/12/1853m 49s

121: What if your favorite celebrity had a crush on you?

“I’ve lived long enough existing in that gray area of not really knowing that maybe I will live the rest of my life not really knowing.”Episode Producer, Editor: Nigel Coutinho www.nigelc.infoShow Producer: Whit Missildinethisisactuallyhappening.comInstagram: @actuallyhappeningEpisode Sponsors: Quip www.getquip.com/happening; Care/Of www.takecareof.com/happeningIntro Music: "Illabye" - TipperMusic Bed: Nigel CoutinhoOutro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
27/11/1838m 18s

120: What if you had Dissociative Identity Disorder?

“I don’t really remember not having different parts…I just thought that everybody had different quote unquote people inside them.”Producer: Whit Missildinethisisactuallyhappening.comInstagram: @actuallyhappeningEpisode Sponsors: Quip www.getquip.com Intro Music: "Illabye" - TipperMusic Bed: “Water” – Johannes WelschOutro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro)  @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
13/11/181h 7m

119: What if you suddenly felt like a werewolf?

“It’s like trying to go into like a dark cave with a rope attached to you so that you can find your way back and then losing that the end of the rope.”Producer: Whit Missildinethisisactuallyhappening.comInstagram: @actuallyhappeningEpisode Sponsors: Quip www.getquip.com and Home Chef www.homechef.comIntro Music: "Illabye" - TipperMusic Bed: “Cylinder Four” and “Cylinder Five” – Chris ZabriskieOutro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negrowww.eldiablobass.com/
30/10/1850m 50s

118: What if you uncovered the family secret?

“The first thing that I felt was invaded, like I physically wanted out of my skin. I didn’t know who the other half of me was….My whole body was crawling and I just wanted out.”Producer: Whit Missildinethisisactuallyhappening.comInstagram: @actuallyhappeningToday's episode features Jaclyn Baxter. You can find out more about her story on her blog: https://bit.ly/2xIS2SOIntro Music: "Illabye" - TipperMusic Bed: “Re-Entry” – Lee RosevereOutro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negrowww.eldiablobass.com/
16/10/1857m 12s

117: What if you didn't know what was wrong with you?

“Not knowing, not having control over my body, and not having control over the narrative of everyone around me…it’s the worst feeling to have to go through this by yourself.” Producer: Whit Missildinethisisactuallyhappening.comInstagram: @actuallyhappeningIntro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Music Bed: “Union Flow” - SpunticOutro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
10/10/1850m 59s

116: What if the Devil was battling for your mind?

“What I feared the most was that these episodes would continue to increase until that’s the world I was living in, in this other nonsensical world completely detached from reality.”Producer: Whit Missildinethisisactuallyhappening.comInstagram: @actuallyhappeningEpisode Sponsor: Daily Harvest: daily-harvest.com Intro Music: "Illabye" - TipperMusic Bed: “Wake Up” - SpunticOutro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
18/09/1841m 44s

115: What if your son went missing?

“It’s not that I understand why this happened, but understanding that you think you know what’s going on, but you don’t. You think you have control but you don’t.”Today's episode features Gina Whalen. If you'd like to help fund her son Izzy's Little Free Libraries, you can donate at https://www.gofundme.com/4t3di48Producer: Whit Missildinethisisactuallyhappening.comInstagram: @actuallyhappeningIntro Music: "Illabye" - TipperMusic Bed: “Cylinder Four” – Chris ZabriskieOutro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/You can support the show by visiting our sponsors or by donating to our Patreon at: https://www.patreon.com/happening?fan_landing=true
07/09/1855m 2s

114: What if her ex-boyfriend tried to kill you?

“All of a sudden within a hundred meters of your house that’s where the worst thing happens and suddenly the world becomes different…you can’t go back to who you were.”Producer: Whit Missildinethisisactuallyhappening.comInstagram: @actuallyhappeningIntro Music: "Illabye" - TipperMusic Bed: "Re-Entry” – Lee RosevereOutro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/You can support the show by visiting our episode sponsors, or by donating to the show on Patreon at: https://www.patreon.com/happening?fan_landing=true
07/09/1849m 38s

113: What if you survived a genocide?

"No one can even understand. You can't measure the magnitude of that pain. You can't measure the pain that we went through."Producer: Whit Missildinethisisactuallyhappening.comInstagram: @actuallyhappeningIntro Music: "Illabye" - TipperMusic Bed: "Cylinder Four" - Chris Zabriskie; "Water" - Johannes WelschOutro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
07/09/1849m 37s

Season 8 Announcements

Announcements for the upcoming 8th Season of This Is Actually Happening, starting Tuesday August 7th, 2018.
07/09/183m 25s

112: What if a murderer appeared at your bedroom door?

"What happened to me is one of those things where people say, like, 'that could never happen to you.' So now once that happened, it's like well anything can happen to me at any time." Producer: Whit Missildine thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Music: "Union Flow" - Spuntic. Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
07/09/1856m 39s

111: What if you had to relearn who you are?

"It put everything that I thought about myself into question...I didn't know what I believed. I didn't know what was real, what was fake." Producer: Whit Missildine thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: "Cylinder Four" "Cylinder Five" - Chris Zabriskie This Is Actually Happening Team: Whit Missildine, Lisa Zaid and Ryan Black Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
07/09/1838m 2s

110: What if everything turned into mayhem?

"It was absolutely like a nightmare. At the same time you're realizing you're never going to wake up from this nightmare because this is real life." Producer: Whit Missildine thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: "Union Flow" - Spuntic This Is Actually Happening Team: Whit Missildine, Lisa Zaid and Ryan Black Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
07/09/1848m 50s

109: What if you were sideswiped into a whole new world?

"I didn't know what the real world was. I wasn't quite oriented...I can't describe it." Producer: Whit Missildine thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: "Re-Entry" - Lee Rosevere Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
07/09/1836m 43s

108: What if you didn't know what they would do to you?

"When the people that are doing this to you look as scared as you are it kind of adds to the fear and to the chaos and to the 'you don't know how this is going to end' feeling." Producer: Whit Missildine thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: "Cylinder Four" - Chris Zabriskie Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
07/09/1837m 10s

107: What if the pain wouldn't go away?

“If I had thought that life was good and good things happened and things were happy, I would have been crushed into the ground. It would have killed me.” Producers: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: “To Speak of Solitude” - Brambles Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
07/09/1830m 45s

106: What if you had to fight to be yourself?

"We don't have growth unless there's pain, and I needed that time to hit rockbottom, so that I could look for a solution." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening You can follow today's guest, Patricio Manuel, on Instagram @team_pat_manuel Music: "Union Flow" - Spuntic Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
07/09/1849m 15s

105: What if your deepest fear was your greatest pleasure?

"Those weird moments of tension...that moment of uncertainty but impending doom...I don't think anything really ever matched that." Producers: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: "Re-Entry" - Lee Rosevere Featured Guest: Dick Wound You can find Dick's Podcast "Off the Cuffs: A Kink and BDSM podcast" on your podcast app. You can follow the show on Twitter and Instagram @OCPKINK. You can also follow Dick on Twitter @DickWound Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro  www.eldiablobass.com/
07/09/1850m 1s

Best of TIAH #1 - Rebroadcast - #79: What if the happiest place on earth was your worst nightmare?

This fall I conducted a poll on our Instagram page (actuallyhappening) asking fans of the show to vote on their favorite episodes. As promised I have been releasing the top 5 episodes over the holiday break until we resume with new episodes in mid January. We finish up the countdown today, coming at #1 "What if the happiest place on earth was your worst nightmare?" “It’s almost like you can’t stand the meaninglessness of the situation, and so you justify it by saying ‘well this must be all my fault.’” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.org Music: "Re-Entry" - Lee Rosevere Follow Us on Instagram: actuallyhappening This Is Actually Happening Team: Whit Missildine, Lisa Zaid and Ryan Black Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro)@eldiablosf@rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
07/09/1836m 0s

Best of TIAH #2 - Rebroadcast - #67: What if you woke up in the morgue?

This fall I conducted a poll on our Instagram page (actuallyhappening) asking fans of the show to vote on their favorite episodes. As promised I will be releasing the top 5 episodes over the holiday break until we resume with new episodes in mid January. We continue the countdown today, coming at #2 "What if you woke up in the morgue?" "Only thing I knew was blackness, that's all I saw. Cuz everything went dark and I was in a whole new world." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.org Music: "Wake Up" - Spuntic Follow Us on Instagram: actuallyhappening This Is Actually Happening Team: Whit Missildine, Lisa Zaid and Ryan Black Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro)@eldiablosf@rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
07/09/1819m 55s

Best of TIAH #3 - Rebroadcast - #63: What if another realm moved through you?

This fall I conducted a poll on our Instagram page (actuallyhappening) asking fans of the show to vote on their favorite episodes. As promised I will be releasing the top 5 episodes over the holiday break until we resume with new episodes in mid January. We continue the countdown today, coming at #3, "What if another realm moved through you? "I was completely lost in, I don't even know what the realm is called, this other spiritual realm, and I was grasping to be grounded." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.org Music: "Cylinder Four" - Chris Zabriskie Follow Us on Instagram: actuallyhappening Today's sponsor: HelloFresh.com. Listeners to this show can receive $30 off by going to HelloFresh.com and entering the offer code "actually30" This Is Actually Happening Team: Whit Missildine, Lisa Zaid and Ryan Black Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro)@eldiablosf@rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
07/09/1828m 49s

Best of TIAH #4 - Rebroadcast - #68: What if your sister had five personalities?

This fall I conducted a poll on our Instagram page (@actuallyhappening) asking fans of the show to vote on their favorite episodes. As promised I will be releasing the top 5 episodes over the holiday break until we resume with new episodes in mid January. We continue the countdown today, coming at #4 "What if your sister had five personalities?" "I walked on eggshells every day....the only way I could survive was to be able to detect which one of these personalities I would be dealing with that day." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.org Music: "The Dark Glow of the Mountains" - Chris Zabriskie This Is Actually Happening Team: Whit Missildine, Lisa Zaid and Ryan Black Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro)@eldiablosf@rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
07/09/1831m 22s

Best of TIAH #5 - Rebroadcast - #89: What if you spent 15 hours on the edge of sanity?

This fall I conducted a poll on our Instagram page asking fans of the show to vote on their favorite episodes. As promised I will be releasing the top 5 episodes over the holiday break until we resume with new episodes in midJanuary. Without further ado, we begin the countdown today, coming at #5 "what if you spent 15 hours on the edge of sanity?" "The rules of reality were changing, and I was trying to get acquainted with these new rules." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.org Original Score & Sound Design: Ryan Black - ryanblack.io Additional Sound Recording: Mason Kessie This Is Actually Happening Team: Whit Missildine, Lisa Zaid and Ryan Black Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro)@eldiablosf@rojo-y-negrowww.eldiablobass.com/
07/09/1843m 37s

104: What if you woke up to a loud bang?

“There is no answer, I’ll never get my apology…I’ll never get my closure.” Producers: Whit Missildine and Lisa Zaid - thisisactuallyhappening.org Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: “Cylinder Four” – Chris Zabriskie This Is Actually Happening Team:  Whit Missildine, Lisa Zaid and Ryan Black To help Lisa Zaid rebuild her home after the Thomas Fire in California, please donate at: www.gofundme.com/help-the-zaid-family-rebuild Sponsor: BarkBox. Listeners to This Is Actually Happening get a free month of BarkBox deliveries when you go to BarkBox.com/actually. Sponsor: HelloFresh.com. Listeners to This Is Actually Happening get $30 off at HelloFresh.com when you enter the promo code: actually30. Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negrowww.eldiablobass.com/
07/09/1845m 21s

103: What if you had a ten year nightmare?

"The hardest part is that I still don't have any answers...what came into my house that night?" Producers: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Original Score & Sound Design: Ryan Black - ryanblack.io Intro Music: "Illabye" - TIpper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf@rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
07/09/1844m 50s

102: What if your origins were a mystery?

"I walk around and there's still kind of like an emptiness. For all I know I could be a government experiment....but part of it is kind of exciting because I think, my father could be anyone." Producers: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Original Score & Sound Design: Ryan Black - ryanblack.io This episode features Jeremy Krupp (Aka, Hugh's Beaumont). You can find his music on Soundcloud at: https://soundcloud.com/hughsbeaumont Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
07/09/1837m 24s

101: What if you sacrificed yourself for your country?

"When you're on deployment, your body's in a different place. So when I got back home my body knew I was safe, so that's when my body shut down on me." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Original Score & Sound Design: Ryan Black - ryanblack.io Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf@rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
07/09/1846m 38s

100: What if he wouldn't let you leave?

"I just didn't feel like a person, I didn't feel like I was a being walking on this planet a lot of the time." Producers: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Original Score & Sound Design: Ryan Black - ryanblack.io Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
07/09/1852m 29s

99: What if you kept getting back up again?

"Life will try to take you out itself...When I look back at this situation, people don't even know that I go through the s**t that I go through." Producers: Whit Missildine & Lisa Zaid - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: "Wake Up" - Spuntic Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
07/09/1840m 24s

98: What if you were an incest survivor?

“How can you know who you really are when from your earliest memories you have just been a vessel for someone else’s needs and desires and control and violence?” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: "Union Flow" - Spuntic Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Music Bed: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
07/09/1853m 3s

97: What if you were a white supremacist?

"I look around at my life and how it is sort of a metaphor for what I think the future could be for the American people." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Original Score & Sound Design: Ryan Black - ryanblack.io Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
07/09/1845m 9s

96: What if you went to the dark side?

"To enter into nonexistence, to enter into emptiness, into nothingness, is that space from which all arises, from which new birth comes." Producer: Whit Missildine and Lisa Zaid - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Original Score & Sound Design: Ryan Black - ryanblack.io Featuring: Albert Flynn DeSilver https://www.albertflynndesilver.com/ Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
07/09/1841m 0s

95: What if you were sent away for re-education?

"You don't know up from down. You don't know left from right. You don't know right from wrong. All you know is that you do not want to be wrong." Producer: Whit Missildine and Lisa Zaid - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Original Score & Sound Design: Ryan Black - ryanblack.io Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
07/09/1851m 56s

Season Seven Announcements

Updates and announcements about Season Seven of the This Is Actually Happening podcast. First Episode Launch for Season Seven: July 25th, 2017 Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.org This Is Actually Happening Team: Whit Missildine, Lisa Zaid and Ryan Black Music Bed: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro)@eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
07/09/182m 50s

94: What if the worst thing that could ever happen to you already had?

"It’s surreal. It’s like a movie. It’s like it’s not even happening to you it’s happening to someone else." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Original Score & Sound Design: Ryan Black - ryanblack.io Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Music Bed: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
07/09/1841m 30s

93: What if you witnessed the limits of human suffering?

“It’s in these places that you begin to see the limits of human capacity – how resilient we are...how we will find a way.” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Original Score & Sound Design: Ryan Black - ryanblack.io Featuring: Anjan Sundaram Website: anjansundaram.com Twitter: @anjansun Author of: "Stringer: A Reporter's Journey in the Congo" and "Bad News: Last Journalists in a Dictatorship" Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
07/09/1842m 25s

92: What if they told you the monsters were real?

“Everybody learns at like 12 or 13…what is real and not real, and I did not get a chance to learn that.” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Original Score & Sound Design: Ryan Black - ryanblack.io Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
07/09/1841m 39s

91: What if you received special messages?

“You start making alternative meanings out of everything.” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Original Score & Sound Design: Ryan Black - ryanblack.io Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
07/09/1833m 25s

90: What if you had a breakthrough insight about the human condition?

“I don’t know why that was a fear of just not having control over me…over what I was going to do.” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: “Union Flow” – Spuntic Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
07/09/1836m 30s

89: What if you spent 15 hours on the edge of sanity?

"The rules of reality were changing, and I was trying to get acquainted with these new rules." Producer: Whit Missildine - http://thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Original Score & Sound Design: Ryan Black - http://ryanblack.io Additional Sound Recording: Mason Kessie Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
07/09/1842m 37s

88: What if you survived war and poverty in Colombia?

"I pictured this little girl inside of me that was not protected." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Original Score & Sound Design: Ryan Black - ryanblack.io Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
07/09/1837m 25s

87: What if you were hunted by the Japanese mafia?

"This might be the beginning of my last few minutes on the planet." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Original Score & Sound Design: Ryan Black - ryanblack.io Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
07/09/1838m 46s

86: What if you had always wanted a different mother?

"What I felt like I needed at any given time in my life, she just couldn't give me." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: "Wake Up" - Spuntic Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
07/09/1834m 28s

85: What if you had bipolar disorder?

"I had 20 years of living my life as the person I knew I was, and then I had this episode that was totally different from that person." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: "The Valley Station" - Accou Links to Accou: accou.bandcamp.com/album/two-stations Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
07/09/1831m 27s

84: What if you staged a dramatic rescue?

"What is the impetus that makes you feel you have to do that thing? I don't know what that little magic piece is, but it was there." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: "Slumberia" - unbeknown Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
07/09/1826m 58s

83: What if your past was an unsolved mystery?

"Everything now is just a partial truth. We're never going to know." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: "Union Flow" - Spuntic Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
07/09/1838m 7s

82: What if you lived your life in exile?

“You lost your country, you lost your family, you lost your identity….and you didn’t know what to do.” Produced by: Tom Henley and Whit Missildine thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: "Resister" - Mama Dang Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
07/09/1826m 14s

81: What if you lived your life as a ghost?

"It's weird to think that there's a place in your brain that's a cradle for the soul and it's cracked." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: "The Valley Station" - Accou Link to hear more by Accou: https://accou.bandcamp.com/album/two-stations Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
07/09/1836m 31s

80: What if your life was rudely interrupted?

"It would have been so easy for me to give up and many people in my situation would have given up." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: "Wake Up" - Spuntic Website for Rudely Interrupted, the band, is: www.rudelyinterrupted.com Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
07/09/1832m 34s

79: What if the happiest place on earth was your worst nightmare?

“It’s almost like you can’t stand the meaninglessness of the situation, and so you justify it by saying ‘well this must be all my fault.’” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: "Re-Entry" - Lee Rosevere Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
07/09/1833m 34s

78: What if you narrowly escaped with your life?

"It took me a long time to feel even like a person again." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: "Cylinder Five" - Chris Zabriskie Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
07/09/1842m 17s

77: What if you followed a singular dream around the planet?

“It’s nice not knowing exactly where you are all the time” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: "Cylinder Five" - Chris Zabriskie Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
07/09/1832m 26s

76: What if you couldn't remember the worst event of your life?

"The challenge of trying to think of my life in a linear narrative is impossible." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: "The Dark Glow of the Mountains" - Chris Zabriskie Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
07/09/1829m 31s

75: What if you were kidnapped by a police officer?

"I look at that girl now and I really don't even feel like she was me." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: "Cylinder Five" - Chris Zabriskie Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
07/09/1830m 38s

74: What if you faced a series of unfortunate events?

"I had such a 'Leave It To Beaver' childhood and then you're kind of flung into all this chaos and you realize 'wow, I didn't live in the real world.'" Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: "Lumien" - Jari Pitkanen Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
07/09/1824m 59s

73: What if your father was lost in a shipwreck?

"It was like a nightmare that could not be our own...It's crazy to think that this actually happened to the people that we know." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: "Cylinder Four" - Chris Zabriskie Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
07/09/1821m 0s

72: What if you survived a shipwreck?

"We were all having so much fun and then just 'bam' like that everybody's gone." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: "Union Flow" - Spuntic Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
07/09/1830m 54s

71: What if your mother tried to cut her heart out?

“You always feel like if your parent ever leaves you on Earth, it’s never going to be by their own hand.” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: "Re-entry" - Lee Rosevere Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
07/09/1830m 10s

70: What if you had a mind-blowing affair?

"I felt like a celestial axe had come down and split my skull in half." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: "Re-Entry" - Lee Rosevere Intro Music 1: "Brethren Arise" - Chris Zabriskie Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
07/09/1827m 50s

69: What if the worst case scenario came true?

"It's pretty devastating to find out that what you thought you knew was completely wrong." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: "Cylinder Five" - Chris Zabriskie Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
07/09/1831m 43s

68: What if your sister had five personalities?

"I walked on eggshells every day....the only way I could survive was to be able to detect which one of these personalities I would be dealing with that day." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: "The Dark Glow of the Mountains" - Chris Zabriskie Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
07/09/1830m 24s

67: What if you woke up in the morgue?

"Only thing I knew was blackness, that's all I saw. Cuz everything went dark and I was in a whole new world." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: "Wake Up" - Spuntic Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
07/09/1818m 57s

66: What if your father went missing?

"I'm just thinking 'oh, okay...I'll just sit there and be confused.'" Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: "Union Flow" - Spuntic Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
07/09/1827m 53s

65: What if you were irreversibly violated?

"Imagine in your mind when you can't stand to be around you. That's like unimaginable, but I got through that." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: "Cylinder Four" - Chris Zabriskie Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
07/09/1827m 7s

64: What if you were a fake priest in Japan?

"I'm like 'oh man...what am I doing here?'" Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: "Re-Entry" - Lee Rosevere Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
07/09/1821m 57s

63: What if another realm moved through you?

"I was completely lost in, I don't even know what the realm is called, this other spiritual realm, and I was grasping to be grounded." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: "The Dark Glow of the Mountains" - Chris Zabriskie Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
07/09/1825m 58s

62: What if you went on the strangest trip?

"I had no idea what had just occurred and why....So I just hid there and waited and waited for what felt like an eternity." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: "Lumien" - Jari Pitkanen Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
07/09/1826m 56s

61: What if oral sex triggered a near death experience?: Part Two

"I still don't know what I want it to mean or if I want it to mean anything." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: "The Dark Glow of the Mountains" - Chris Zabriskie Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
07/09/1827m 50s

60: What if oral sex triggered a near death experience?: Part One

"Anytime I felt off or bad or anything, I would immediately freak out....it would just spiral out of control every single time." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: "The Dark Glow of the Mountains" - Chris Zabriskie Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
07/09/1826m 12s

59: What if you couldn't control your thoughts?

"Like a record player, stuck in a loop all day, every day." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: "Wake Up" - Spuntic Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
07/09/1823m 52s

58: What if you were pronounced dead at age 12?

"You're not supposed to recover from being dead...this is as ultimate as it gets, right?" Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: "Union Flow" - Spuntic Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
07/09/1820m 51s

57: What if your husband had a death wish?

"I feel like I'm a survivor on this Earth and everybody's got everything and I have to fight so hard to get it." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: "Cylinder Four" - Chris Zabriskie Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
07/09/1824m 22s

56: What if you touched the spirit world?

"There's so much more to the bigger picture...and we'll never understand it until we cross over." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: "Ambient Theme #1" - Steve O'Brien Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
07/09/1823m 23s

55: What if reality suddenly fell apart?

"It's like when your computer reboots...that's sort of what happened to my brain, and then everything on the hard drive gets wiped." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: "Re-entry" - Lee Rosevere Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
07/09/1825m 42s

54: What if you lost a high speed chase?

"This is not just a fantasy. This is not just a joke, like the rest of my life had become. This is real." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: "Lumien" - Jari Pitkanen Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
07/09/1826m 35s

53: What if September 11th changed everything?

"I have no connection with who I was in 2001...don't know him." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: "Cylinder Four" - Chris Zabriskie Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
07/09/1824m 52s

52: What if you found yourself in a dark, strange land?

"Mother nature tells us what to do, not the other way around." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: "Wake Up" - Spuntic Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
07/09/1820m 18s

51: What if your roommate had a deep dark secret?

"His face was everything that I was angry about." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: "Union Flow" - Spuntic Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
07/09/1822m 50s

50: What if you were not supposed to see this?

“I’m not supposed to be seeing this. Like, there’s a crack somewhere. There’s something wrong.” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: “Water” - Johannes Welsch Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
07/09/1820m 16s

49: What if you were shot by your father?

"I remember blanking out, dazed....I felt like I was in a tunnel." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: "Wake Up" - Spuntic Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
07/09/1828m 32s

48: What if you went from riches to rags?

"I didn't even understand what had happened, how I lost everything." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: “Cylinder Four” - Chris Zabriskie Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
07/09/1820m 11s

47: What if your wife hung herself in the garage?

"It was just this sense of like an emotional atomic bomb go off in your head.” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: "Water" - Johannes Welsch Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
07/09/1818m 56s

46: What if your wife ran you over?

"You can never really tell what a woman's been through if you don't ask the right questions." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: "Lumien" - Jari Pitkanen Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
07/09/1816m 54s

45: What if your husband led a secret life?

"The man that I loved is no more. It's almost like, this person died, but is still living." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: "Union Flow" - Spuntic Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
07/09/1822m 58s

44: What if you delivered seven thousand babies?

"Its pretty hard to have a down day when you touch the beginnings of life." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: "Re-entry" - Lee Rosevere Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
07/09/1821m 25s

43: What if you witnessed a thousand deaths?

"All of the ways we define ourselves are going to be stripped away by illness or the dying process...now who am I?" Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: Tibetan Ohm Chant Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
07/09/1830m 29s

42: What if you gave up everything for love?

"Everything is temporary if you give it enough time." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: "Wake Up" - Spuntic Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
07/09/1823m 25s

41: What if you were supposed to be on that plane?

"It was literally an out of body experience. Like, it wasn't me who was looking at the screen." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: "Chop it Up" - Squirm Orchestra Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
07/09/1816m 33s

40: What if you came out to your wife at age 37?

"I have begun the process for some years of decolonizing the mind, but I have a long way to go." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: "Slumberia" - unbeknown Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
07/09/1822m 55s

39: What if you married someone you knew only 10 days?

"We screw up, and that's how we find our way." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: "Phylotaxis" - Squirm Orchestra Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
07/09/1823m 25s

38: What if you were delivered by the Holy Ghost?

"When things don't make sense to me, I don't like it. So, to have something like this obviously not make sense to me....But it happened." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: "Union Flow" - Spuntic Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
07/09/1819m 40s

37: What if your dad started dressing as a woman?

"It was one of the first times I realized, okay, there's a whole other world of things that are possible now because of this." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: "Cat Wearing Glasses" – Lee Rosevere Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
07/09/1815m 24s

36: What if you lost a fiance and lover to a wave?

"I could not look at the ocean, because when I look at it, it just seemed like an enemy to me." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: "Rain Makes Rain" - Tardiss Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
07/09/1825m 38s

35: What if you didn't go outside until 6th grade?

"They were saying, you're too American for us to deport you....But you're not American enough for us to give you a passport." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: "Wake Up" - Spuntic Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
07/09/1821m 1s

8: What if you were falsely accused of pedophilia?

"Yeah I struggle with that question...Why?" Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: "Water" – Johannes Welsch Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
07/09/1819m 11s

33: What if you left Wall Street to find true purpose?

“And that was essentially the crowbar that kind of flipped the whole world view on its head.” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: “Rain Makes Rain” - Tardiss Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
07/09/1820m 55s

32: What if you lived through the Sri Lankan civil war?

“Statistically, you’re going to survive this….but it’s the terror of not knowing.” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: "Cat Wearing Glasses" – Lee Rosevere Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
07/09/1820m 24s

31: What if your newborn baby never stopped crying?

"It's hard to fall in love with somebody that you can't get to know." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: “Snow Capture” - Nasienie Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
07/09/1821m 58s

30: What if you were raided by pirates?

"I can imagine now, as a father....I can imagine what he feels like." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: “To Speak of Solitude” – Brambles Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
07/09/1821m 45s

29: What if you had sex with over 900 people?

"I've come to a place where I don't believe in a God that's less compassionate than I am." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: “Phylotaxis” - Squirm Orchestra Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
07/09/1827m 20s

28: What if you were lost in the jungle?

"That is the cutting edge. That is the true cutting edge - that moment." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music Bed: “Bliss Out” - Nasienie Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
07/09/1815m 39s

27: What if you survived a deadly plague?

"Somehow, some way and for some reason, I have thus far survived it. I don’t what that means." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Music: “However Dark It Be” - Nasienie Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
07/09/1820m 27s

26: What if you were a nurse for hardened criminals?

“When you’re looking for a sign, you reach a point, and when you’re ready you’ll take anything as a sign. And I reached that point.” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Music: Irsen’s Tale – Kai Engel Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
07/09/1816m 2s

25: What if you rose from the ashes of addiction?

"And the why question...I suppose there is an answer to the why, and it has no interest to me any more." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Music: “Rain Makes Rain” - Tardiss Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
07/09/1823m 8s

24: What if your mom kicked you out on the streets?

"I still smile, I still laugh...because I feel like nothing's gonna knock me out." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Music: “Phylotaxis” - Squirm Orchestra Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
07/09/1814m 57s

23: What if your stepchild was kidnapped?

"Still to this day I question, because what mercy is there in that?" Producer: Whit Missildinethisisactuallyhappening.comInstagram: @actuallyhappeningContent/Trigger Warnings: abuse, explicit languageSupport The Show: You can support the show by supporting our sponsors, or through direct contributions on Patreon at https://www.patreon.com/happeningIntro Music: "Illabye" - TipperMusic: "Water” – Johannes WelschOutro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
07/09/1819m 14s

22: What if your mom had Paranoid Personality Disorder?

"Your family becomes normal no matter how weird it is." Producer: Whit Missildinethisisactuallyhappening.comInstagram: @actuallyhappeningContent/Trigger Warnings: mental illness, explicit languageSupport The Show: You can support the show by supporting our sponsors, or through direct contributions on Patreon at https://www.patreon.com/happeningIntro Music: "Illabye" - TipperMusic: "Snow Capture" - NasienieOutro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
07/09/1817m 3s

21: What if you had a psychotic break at age 17?

“I was this other person….and what I saw my real me as is the person I used to be and it would sneak up on me and see what I was doing behind my back.” Producer: Whit Missildinethisisactuallyhappening.comInstagram: @actuallyhappeningContent/Trigger Warnings: mental illness, psychosis, explicit languageSupport The Show: You can support the show by supporting our sponsors, or through direct contributions on Patreon at https://www.patreon.com/happeningIntro Music: "Illabye" - TipperMusic: "Bliss Out" - NasienieOutro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
07/09/1817m 16s

20: What if you were a white school principal in 1968?

“Nothing I learned at University taught me how to handle this kind of situation, or any of us who were there.” Producer: Whit Missildinethisisactuallyhappening.comInstagram: @actuallyhappeningContent/Trigger Warnings: explicit languageSupport The Show: You can support the show by supporting our sponsors, or through direct contributions on Patreon at https://www.patreon.com/happeningIntro Music: "Illabye" - TipperMusic: "Not for Nothing” – Dan GrossOutro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
07/09/1818m 30s

19: What if you suffered from Tourette Syndrome?

"I just felt like my brain told me that I had to do it." Producer: Whit Missildinethisisactuallyhappening.comInstagram: @actuallyhappeningContent/Trigger Warnings: mental illness, explicit languageSupport The Show: You can support the show by supporting our sponsors, or through direct contributions on Patreon at https://www.patreon.com/happeningIntro Music: "Illabye" - TipperMusic: "Bliss Out” - NasienieOutro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
07/09/1817m 24s

18: What if you were hanging off a 600 ft waterfall?

"It could just be over, all of a sudden, in a second." Producer: Whit Missildinethisisactuallyhappening.comInstagram: @actuallyhappeningContent/Trigger Warnings: explicit languageSupport The Show: You can support the show by supporting our sponsors, or through direct contributions on Patreon at https://www.patreon.com/happeningIntro Music: "Illabye" - TipperMusic: "To Speak of Solitude” – BramblesOutro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com
07/09/1817m 34s

17: What if you were given 48 hours to live?

"I'm just so clear that nothing else is promised, other than right now."Producer: Whit Missildinethisisactuallyhappening.comInstagram: @actuallyhappeningContent/Trigger Warnings: cancer, explicit languageSupport The Show: You can support the show by supporting our sponsors, or through direct contributions on Patreon at https://www.patreon.com/happeningIntro Music: "Illabye" - TipperMusic: "Cat Wearing Glasses" – Lee RosevereOutro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
07/09/1818m 38s

16: What if you became a Blood Sorcerer?

"I woke up and I was just like, wait a second, I feel whole again."Producer: Whit Missildinethisisactuallyhappening.comInstagram: @actuallyhappeningContent/Trigger Warnings: death, explicit languageSupport The Show: You can support the show by supporting our sponsors, or through direct contributions on Patreon at https://www.patreon.com/happeningIntro Music: "Illabye" - TipperMusic: "Irsen’s Tale” – Kai EngelOutro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
07/09/1819m 17s

15: What if your dad died on your 10th birthday?

"It's always going to put me in a strange place...A place I can't articulate."Producer: Whit Missildinethisisactuallyhappening.comInstagram: @actuallyhappeningContent/Trigger Warnings: death, explicit languageSupport The Show: You can support the show by supporting our sponsors, or through direct contributions on Patreon at https://www.patreon.com/happeningIntro Music: "Illabye" - TipperMusic: "Not for Nothing” – Dan GrossOutro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
07/09/1818m 31s

14: What if you learned how to swim at 43?

"It was a huge revelation...It was what we call the 'Aha' moment." Producer: Whit Missildinethisisactuallyhappening.comInstagram: @actuallyhappeningContent/Trigger Warnings: explicit languageSupport The Show: You can support the show by supporting our sponsors, or through direct contributions on Patreon at https://www.patreon.com/happeningIntro Music: "Illabye" - TipperMusic: "Rain Makes Rain” - TardissOutro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
07/09/1812m 50s

13: What if you got a job transporting dead bodies?

“How the fuck did I get here?”Producer: Whit Missildinethisisactuallyhappening.comInstagram: @actuallyhappeningContent/Trigger Warnings: graphic death, explicit languageSupport The Show: You can support the show by supporting our sponsors, or through direct contributions on Patreon at https://www.patreon.com/happeningIntro Music: "Illabye" - TipperMusic: "However Dark It Be” - NasienieOutro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/“
07/09/1811m 7s

12: What if your dad wasn't your real dad?

"I was always semi-conscious that, okay, I'm gonna play this off...but deep inside, I don't really belong here." Producer: Whit Missildinethisisactuallyhappening.comInstagram: @actuallyhappeningContent/Trigger Warnings: explicit languageSupport The Show: You can support the show by supporting our sponsors, or through direct contributions on Patreon at https://www.patreon.com/happeningIntro Music: "Illabye" - TipperMusic: "Let Down" - Genie Love (Radiohead Cover)Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
07/09/1816m 52s

34: What if you spent 4 years in solitary confinement?

"After crossing that line, hope was born in me. And this would make all the difference in the world." Producer: Whit Missildinethisisactuallyhappening.comInstagram: @actuallyhappeningContent/Trigger Warnings: explicit languageSupport The Show: You can support the show by supporting our sponsors, or through direct contributions on Patreon at https://www.patreon.com/happeningIntro Music: "Illabye" - TipperMusic: "Union Flow" - SpunticOutro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
07/09/1822m 4s

11: What if you didn't believe in belief itself?

"If you really want something to be true, that's when you have to question it." Producer: Whit Missildinethisisactuallyhappening.comInstagram: @actuallyhappeningContent/Trigger Warnings: explicit languageSupport The Show: You can support the show by supporting our sponsors, or through direct contributions on Patreon at https://www.patreon.com/happeningIntro Music: "Illabye" - TipperMusic: "Ultra Deep Field” – StellardroneOutro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
07/09/1815m 7s

10: What if you quit your job and lived on garbage?

"It's pretty liberating....just saying 'fuck it'" Producer: Whit Missildinethisisactuallyhappening.comInstagram: @actuallyhappeningContent/Trigger Warnings: explicit languageSupport The Show: You can support the show by supporting our sponsors, or through direct contributions on Patreon at https://www.patreon.com/happeningIntro Music: "Illabye" - TipperMusic: “Rubbish Hummingbird” - LuWormOutro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
07/09/1815m 15s

7: What if you lost your sense of smell?

"For the first time this year...I smelled a person, for one day." Producer: Whit Missildinethisisactuallyhappening.comInstagram: @actuallyhappeningContent/Trigger Warnings: explicit languageSupport The Show: You can support the show by supporting our sponsors, or through direct contributions on Patreon at https://www.patreon.com/happeningIntro Music: "Illabye" - TipperMusic: "Progression" - Jessica StylerOutro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
07/09/1816m 4s

9: What if you had your first kiss at 27?

"If I had chosen to participate in my life a decade earlier, I would be a completely different person than I am now." Producer: Whit Missildinethisisactuallyhappening.comInstagram: @actuallyhappeningContent/Trigger Warnings: explicit languageSupport The Show: You can support the show by supporting our sponsors, or through direct contributions on Patreon at https://www.patreon.com/happeningIntro Music: "Illabye" - TipperMusic: "Snow Capture" - NasienieOutro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
07/09/1816m 5s

6: What if you weren't afraid to die?

"Oh no, I'm not afraid of dying, I'm afraid of living." Producer: Whit Missildinethisisactuallyhappening.comInstagram: @actuallyhappeningContent/Trigger Warnings: explicit languageSupport The Show: You can support the show by supporting our sponsors, or through direct contributions on Patreon at https://www.patreon.com/happeningIntro Music: "Illabye" - TipperMusic: Tibetan Ohm chantOutro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
07/09/189m 10s

5: What if you worked in a remote African hospital?

"It again became clear that I didn't know what I was talking about." Producer: Whit Missildinethisisactuallyhappening.comInstagram: @actuallyhappeningContent/Trigger Warnings: explicit languageSupport The Show: You can support the show by supporting our sponsors, or through direct contributions on Patreon at https://www.patreon.com/happeningIntro Music: "Illabye" - TipperMusic: "Rain Makes Rain" – TardissOutro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
07/09/1819m 14s

4: What if your mom died on Christmas Day?

"When life suddenly throws something at you like that...Now I'll believe anything. You tell me anything, I'll be like 'sure, why not.'"Producer: Whit Missildinethisisactuallyhappening.comInstagram: @actuallyhappeningContent/Trigger Warnings: death, explicit languageSupport The Show: You can support the show by supporting our sponsors, or through direct contributions on Patreon at https://www.patreon.com/happeningIntro Music: "Illabye" - TipperMusic: "To Speak of Solitude" – BramblesOutro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
07/09/1813m 47s

3: What if you used to speak in tongues?

"I want to understand my own brain." Producer: Whit Missildinethisisactuallyhappening.comInstagram: @actuallyhappeningContent/Trigger Warnings: explicit languageSupport The Show: You can support the show by supporting our sponsors, or through direct contributions on Patreon at https://www.patreon.com/happeningIntro Music: "Illabye" - TipperMusic: "Irsen’s Tale" – Kai EngelOutro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
07/09/1815m 5s

2: What if you were an alcoholic at age 9?

"The one that wins is the one you feed the most" Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Content/Trigger Warnings: mental illness, substance abuse, explicit languageYou can support the show by supporting our sponsors, or through direct contributions on Patreon at https://www.patreon.com/happeningMusic: "Water" – Johannes Welsch Intro Music: “Illabye” – Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro)@eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
07/09/1818m 19s

1: What if your boyfriend lit himself on fire?

"We're still here. What part are we playing in all this?" Producer: Whit Missildinethisisactuallyhappening.com Content/Trigger Warnings: suicide, mental illness, explicit languageMusic: "Cat Wearing Glasses" – Lee Rosevere Intro Music: “Illabye” – Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/You can support the show by supporting our sponsors, or through direct contributions on Patreon at https://www.patreon.com/happening
07/09/1812m 42s
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